Coffee Date

If we had a coffee date today we would have to brave the crazy snow outside (mini-blizzard up in New England today). I would probably want to sneak away to Starbucks so we could chat over our favorite lattes. But you may want to put on your snow tiers first. Don’t worry, this is New England and the plows are a plenty.

I would tell you

…I am so glad for this snow day today. As I was lying in bed this morning snuggled under the covers at 5:10 listening to my daughter Coo over the monitor I thought, I don’t want to get all dressed up and go out in this crazy weather. I just want to snuggle in my jams with my daughter and drink coffee. (That said I would probably be wearing my jams under my snow pants if we met for coffee today)

…this week has been pretty tough. I feel very behind at work on grading and all the paperwork I have to do (this new teacher evaluation system is slowly killing all teachers). I have broken down in tears more than once this week, feeling overwhelmed by my life right now. I have been feeling sad about missing so much time with Millie each day and being so tired when I come home from work.

…I get through each day only by the grace of God. I seriously don’t know what I would do without his grace each day. I think one of the reasons he has me in this particular season of life is to remind me that I need him every day and to help me to trust him more.

…I have been feeling less of a desire to blog daily and less of a desire to read blogs daily. I have been spending more time trying to read and connect with a few bloggers than on reading tons of blogs just to read them. I have started to see blogging differently. I want it to be about making connections and meeting people. Spreading my influence and enhancing my life. I don’t want it to be a burden and I am more and more willing each day to let blogging go when I feel it as a burden. I use to cringe at the idea of not blogging anymore, Now I think of it as a possibility if it became too much for me. So far I am content to blog a couple of times a week when I feel led and find the time. I hope you are okay with that.

…Millie has been getting better at daycare lately and I am so proud of her each time the babysitter says she either ate from her bottle or didn’t scream all day. M has a stubborn streak and the babysitter has been beyond patient! I am so grateful to have such a fabulous babysitter for M. It makes it easier for me to go to work each day knowing that someone is taking care of her that will show her love and be patient (but firm) when M is upset or not napping.

…we have a trip planned for Ikea tomorrow and I.can.not.wait. Did I mention I went only 2 weeks ago. That is how much I love Ikea. D and I keep joking about how we have to share M’s heritage with her (she is part Swedish because of her daddy). We probably won’t be buying much, but we are going to pick somethings out and make a list so we can start saving to make some new purchases (new couches, new entertainment center, closet for M’s room, etc). I just hope the snow lets up and the roads are good by tomorrow. But this is New England, the roads will be better by the end of the day probably (as long as the snow stops).

…speaking of snow, lately D and I have been joking (sort of) about moving south. It isn’t like I want to move away from my family but this snow and cold weather is getting under my skin. I keep telling D we need to just learn to embrace the winter and accept that it will last through the end of March and even into April. But it just seems to bleak. Spring will come though and summers here are just glorious. So I will be singing a different tune in 2 months (assuming it stops snowing by May). Sometimes I just have to get off my IG feed and stop looking at pictures of friends who live in warmer states.

…I read this verse in my devotional  yesterday and it really hit home. (as you can see from above) I have been struggling with grumbling and complaining lately. I really do mean that God’s grace gets me through each day, because I need a constant reminder that he is in control and EVERYTHING in my life is part of his plan. When I complain I am basically saying that my plan is better than his plan. I need to trust him more. I think this is going to be a life long battle.

Joining Alissa today for coffee date friday